Harvesting Joy

Jameson is not doing great today. His fever is back. His heart rate is high. His bowels are huge and not working and possibly full of fluid. He seems to be bleeding in his belly and possibly in his bowels but no one is sure how much or where it is coming from. He is in rough shape and the doctors aren't sure if he will be stable enough on Monday to survive his daily roadtrips for the radiation treatment. Avastin is off the table right now due to bleeding, too. We are running out of options. I still have hope but I'm also very scared. I don't want my baby to go to heaven so soon. Please pray that he will stabilize enough to get the radiation.